welovedoublechin

2007-08-04T23:01:00.001+08:00

woahh haha i'm finally updating!!
went to jade darling's house and surprised her :)
cheer up okayy!
we love youuu :)
ended up camwhoring and err, haha.
with horrible horrible photos haha

haha goodness, why they so unglam.

we love her old school mirror!

swing swing swing!! :)

awww.
haha had an emo talk with gf today!
been so long since we last did that!
:D

the days have been passing by just like that
a levels are just a phrase i know,
somehow i cant help but feel so discouraged
study study study now.
nothing but study,
go rachel!
go everyone!
whatever it is,
i want to do my best!

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder,
and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
i know i'm still afraid
of trying again
thunder
boys like girls

love,
rach

2007-07-15T22:19:00.000+08:00

happy thoughts?

nummbed,
ooh waiting for it to thaw and hurt?
haha nice try rachel.

saw the stop sign in time darling,
i'm stopping RIGHT NOW.

love,
rach

2007-07-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

hello i have an extra hApPy life.
i couldn't be any happier. really :D x10
the awesomest friends. (:

weiting.

2007-06-30T20:42:00.000+08:00

BT2 is OVER!
well, sort of.
like over as in,over, and over as in, my life is over.
okay just pretend you understood that!
its okay, billy says its like J-curve,
things get worse before it gets better.
im at my worst,
so it should get better soon right?
okay right.
okay i should stop talking to myself.

aye i realised our old old old blog posts so interesting,
now like ultimate sianxzxzx.

anyone who wants to commit suicide before BT results can come borrow my ipod okay!
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.
BYE,
cherell (the skinny garfield)

2007-06-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

block tests have officially started.
:/

haha happy girl?
aye maybe,
i just know that God is always there no matter what.
and through this block tests,
though how sucky it may get,
i know You love me :)

swing, ice cream, shopping :))
i cant wait!

love,
rach

2007-06-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

yay very awesome it's been one million yrs since i've blogged.

anyway, why are all the posts so EMO?!

i'm not emooo
i = happy kiddo.

alright. nothing to say. BYE.

weiting.

2007-06-12T20:26:00.000+08:00

woke up at 3 am to the thunderstorm and the huge pitter patter of the rain,
it was kinda dark and it just sucked being all alone in the house.
did maths when it was still pouring out there,
desperately trying to find solutions for everything
dumped clothes into the washing machine,
hanged them and the whole hanging thing just came crashing down on me
ha, how much worse could this get.
couldnt open the kitchen door at all
couldnt find my house key
bit my lip till it bled
the show was damn depressing
i chanced upon the letter xanne wrote to daddy which was really emotional
i miss my family like crap

It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry
but the tears wont stop
big girls dont cry
fergie

love,
rach

2007-06-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

iwantiwantiwantiwantiwantiwantiwantiwant ):

wasting my time watching dance videos on youtube,
and erhum,interesting syf video from long ago.
HAHHA boon, want? try harder!
Perdonare, forgive.

cherell.
Sticking with your family is what makes it family.

2007-06-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

went out with the girls today(:
its amazing just spending just a few hours with them and i feel so much happier!
<3

killl meeee, i dont wanna take block tests >=(
while daddy and mummy are in denmark and xanne in hk,
i dont wanna stay in spore!!
damnit, i cant do this, esp you.
love,
rach

2007-05-30T20:43:00.000+08:00

uncle petrus, we love you.

and daddy held mummy's hand and said,
dont take things for granted, you'll never know when God may just take us away.

love,
rach

2007-05-28T22:09:00.000+08:00

STUDYING STARTS.
pp macs is hip (:

some things just wont change huh,
single single single (:
wonder who will ever make me change my mind.
shall not go thinking about it.

HAHA though i know someone who's mad now, totally in love.

boon says: _ _ _ _!! thanks for the memories :)
(pffft, i swear he's dreaming)

thanks for the memories
fall out boy

love,
rach

2007-05-21T20:57:00.000+08:00

hello kitty's birthday celebration at fish and co! :)

the birthday girl!

just a few of the photos we took :)

life's driving people nuts,
i think i'm mad,
oh the monday blues >=(

love,
rach

2007-05-16T21:54:00.000+08:00

mummy's day at sentosa :D

my sister so glam

my sister always so glam

thank God for family.
im totally drained ):

cherell.

2007-05-16T21:12:00.000+08:00

omg blogger works finally.
the last week was tiring,
and this week is ultimate loser week haha i wonder why.

i'll try not to think about you
i'll try to live my life without you
i'll try to ease the pain
but girl, i'm gonna miss i'm gonna miss you
i'll try to make it on my own
i'll try not to call your phone
i'll try to let you go
but i'm gonna miss you i'm gonna miss you.

awww, so sweet right.
i love this song (: its been on repeat for quite long.
its mid week and i'm drained :/
hope this week ends happily,
praying hard for everything to turn out well :)

love,
rach

2007-05-04T22:56:00.000+08:00

anyone wanna see my new hair its here

haha at island creamery for damn good mudpie before PMT.
:/
start studying,
but i'm meeting phantom tmrrrr.
:))

love,
rach

2007-04-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

i kissed dating goodbye.

a girl stood up in the middle of the congregation, walked quietly to the altar, and took David's other hand. Another girl approached and stood next to the first, followed by another. Soon, a chain of six girls stood by him as he repeated his vows to Anna.

Anna felt her lip quiver as tears welled up in her eyes.
"is this some kind of joke?" she whispered to David.

"i'm..i'm sorry Anna," he said, staring at the floor.

"who are these girls, David? what is going on?" she gasped.

"they are girls from my past," he answered sadly. "Anna, they dont mean anything to me now..but i've given part of my heart to each of them."

"i thought your heart was mine," she said.

"it is, it is,"he pleased. "Everything that's left is yours."

A tear rolled down Anna's cheek. Then she woke up.

-

thankyou for all the wishes and presents :)
much love to all those who gave me cards!!
i always loved cards and really treasure them :D
thankyou!!

and yes, i've successfully chopped off all my hair and give people a scare
haha oh well i just told the hairstylist cut whatever you want and sooo..
i look at my wall of photos and all i see is my long long hair.
haha its alright rachel!!
you wanted to do this and yes you've done it :)

haha bye,
gonna read my book.
kissed dating goodbye? yeah.
love,
rach

2007-04-23T22:29:00.000+08:00

Past the point of no return
The final threshold
What warm unspoken secrets
Will we learn
beyond the point of no return

i love phantom!
i want to marry him, and make him sing to me :D
hahha anw it was really good,
in love with the songs once again.
wish i was living in that time,
cos masquerade cooler than clubbing!

schools feel totally different from phantom,
i dont like ):
past the point of no return

cherell.

2007-04-22T21:15:00.000+08:00

i've got joy that is down in my heart
deep deep down in my heart!
J-O-Y that is down in my heart
deep deep down in my heart!
Jesus gave it to me
and no one can DESTROY DESTROY DESTROY
J-O-Y that is down in my heart
deep deep down in my heart!
:D

singing it with my sister the whole night haha
having so much fun singing at the top of my lungs!!

the box had an expiry date i only found out today,
it labelled 260406
haha damnit,
i'm one year late.
if only i saw it earlier,
it wouldnt have caused so much pain.

love,
rach

2007-04-21T23:44:00.000+08:00

met chock today before he will turn bald next week.

cant stand his poser ray bans shades haha

met up with them for dinner at clarke quay to celebrate!! :))
the dessert was sooo good okay haha. chocolate truffle and strawberry cheesecake! heaven :)
i love them so so so so much,
i miss them alr!!

thankyou darling for the lovely lovely chocolate and card :) heh though the heart's broken.

charissa monkey for the old sec4 memories! haha omg i look so diff in sec4!! love you monkey!

ziyan and hmsee!! :) loveee you all, best friends always :)

we sat at clarke quay till late and it was the first time in how long that i didnt realise how late it was alr, sat and started at the bungy jump thing haha and screamed whenever we saw it go up!! it is scary i tell you haha. just talked and emo-ed and talked :) i love the girls.

and i wished everything will stay the same.

love,
rach

2007-04-18T20:37:00.000+08:00

phwroarrrr.
i need food, but there's nothing at home :/
its feeling good not to eat like the whole day and then you binge/or dont eat,
but damn i know its not good.

its only the start of my 8 weeks timetable,
and i'm feeling so tired of seeing it!!
i've got to make it prettier :)
there will be cheer perf for sports day on friday!
hope everything goes well as it will be our last one,
WE CAN DO IT!! :D

its hmsee and karmun's birthday tmr!! :))
HAPPY EIGHTEENTH DARLINGS <33
miss you girls alot and i cant cant wait to meet you all soon!!
and bel our date set ah :)

i feel like i'm drifting.
yeah like damn far away.

i belong to me
jessica simpson

love,
rach

2007-04-17T21:50:00.000+08:00

everday is nerd day.
im tired ROAR
Life is short but this time it was bigger.

cherell.

2007-04-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

okay i know this is a lil late but,
thanks to all who wished and msged and made my day :D
weiting and rach:
HUGE card and other stuff, i know you all spent alot of time to make it and stupid weiting late for sch cos you forgot to bring hahha.
and yingneng, weiyun, siying and kenny, boon, mumtaz and shuf, cheryl and THE CLASS!
(i cant really think now)
I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU ALL :D

anw,
i didnt use to believe that friday the 13th was bad,
until today >=(

cherell.

2007-04-06T22:20:00.000+08:00

loads of junk food
chocolate ice cream
sleeeeping alot
winnie the pooh galore :D
the tears and laughter
i can be a mid tier!! :)))
friends :)
i miss the 3 girlfriends :(
peacefulness and quietness
weariness
hope
and of course love <3

always look on the bright side :) no matter how bad things are,
GOD loves you :D
its good friday and i just wanna say thank You for loving me under any circumstances and just being with me throughout to this point of my life.
thank You for always saving me when i'm close to tears, for assuring me that i'm not as stupid as i think haha esp when i'm doing maths.
i love you Jesus!!

going out with mummy tmr :))
been so long since i last went out with her.

love,
rach

2007-03-31T21:24:00.000+08:00

after all we've been through, though we did not win,
i'm still happy and i love love team serahs :)
my eyes are stinging now, dont like glitter :(
i miss the kids, cant wait to see them at first session tmr!!
alone again, haha oh well, leaving me alone seems to be a habit. i'm tired, really.
love,
rach

2007-03-27T23:48:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

cherell.

2007-03-24T21:33:00.000+08:00

congrats to team spectrum!! :))

morning, impromptu tanning :)

omg stupid cherell took her non existent chest instead!! haha okay lah miss booby.

dinner with mel mel mel :)

we have each otherrr to hold on to man :)
self timer is so fun.

finally bought bro's present and i'm broke.
tired gurlz, haha
bye.

love,
rach

2007-03-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

after block tests yest

cool me, emo cherell

still cool me, retarded wt, still emo cherell

cooler me, and cherr finally decide to smile

oh well, weiting. haha

sick photo :)

anw, after trng, it really felt like a tropical cyclone was coming!!
on my way home, the sky was amazingly beautiful and stormy.
thank you loser partner for being there <3

looking at the stormy sky in tears,
never felt more alone but yet,
i know God is watching over me through the stormy clouds.

love,
rach

2007-03-19T19:00:00.000+08:00

3 more days ):
if only i was merely scared of getting into msp,
and not failing BT1 and getting OUT of sch.
Slow down, you crazy child
and take the phone off the hook
and disappear for a while
it's all right,
you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize,
Vienna waits for you?
give me one reason why i should not be scared now

cherell.

2007-03-18T01:16:00.000+08:00

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home

May be surrounded by
A million people
I still feel all alone
Just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

wont You just take me home?
heaven is home where there'll be no more tears and pain,
home
michael buble

love,
rach

2007-03-13T22:41:00.000+08:00

:/

craving damn badly for donuts now.
this is driving me crazy.
i need a swing, a donut and a happy thought.
:)

love is like quicksilver in the hand
leave the fingers open, and it stays
clutch it, and it darts away

love,
rach

2007-02-27T20:11:00.000+08:00

1. talking to krystal bout my dream farm today while taking tb med made me feel really happy&dreamy :))
2. having no homework today is :)
3. 'Lord, i want to be whole' book on my table now brings back so many memories, looking at the msg written inside by him reminds me how much has changed.
4. am still thinking of my dream farm.
5. talking to favourite people in the week :)
6. unseen lit exam is next tues :/
7. thinking of how young girls as 5 who are alr so conscious about their weight is scary (the tyra banks show today)
8. online shopping is damn fun :)
9. God is good :))
10. i wanna stay happy

everytime i close my eyes
babyface

love,
rach

2007-02-26T22:49:00.000+08:00

i wish i could do this.
school's so.. draining?
though i kinda waste my life away at sch.
i want to go sailing,
want to lie on the beach,
want to go on a holiday.
basically just leave for awhile,
would be so so nice.
oh and, i wanna fly.

nice nice talk with gf today <3

cherell.

2007-02-20T10:24:00.000+08:00

i realised how pathetic this is.
everything.
everything.

lips of an angel
hinder

love,
rach

2007-02-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

photos at church and daddy's family :)

we're a small family but we are full of God's love :)

mummy's family

my kid cousin haha.

grew up with them :)

i've got smth for the peace sign i realised.
haha.
will be seeing the cousins again tmr,
more photos.

You're beautiful beyond description :)

love,
rach

2007-02-16T21:02:00.000+08:00

photos photos photos :D

haha my first photo with bryant

nellieee

jiawen

ahlianzzz haha

she loves me

and they love me haha

i <3 them

hug time

gabriel

haha CHAANG.

j2 flyers :)

FOS ( full of short people )

girl bases :)

WE FLY :D

poor ms hon and ms ong haha

06A02!!

ms hon :)

ms ong :)

the best cca tchers ever

stunts

look at tim he's smiling like mad haha

cheerleading :)
SA SERAHS :)

met eileen, she's still shorter than me :)

met them :D
and i realise that i feel really happy everytime i get to meet them :)

i'm in love, haha
RIGHT.
tmr's reunion dinner!
i really wished i never met you.seriously.
love,
rach

2007-02-15T16:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY EIGHTEENTH JADE!!

heh i really tried not to put unglam photos,
but i couldnt find any other.
HAHA.
be glad i didnt put the other photo at pizza hut.
loveeeee. :)

VALENTINES AND LAO DA'S EIGHTEENTH!!

thank you for presents!! :D

i'm happy today!!!!
:))))))))))))))))))))))
its like HAPPY,
HAPPY, HAPPY.
haha no lah,
i'm not obsessed.

finally cheer performance tmr,
Lord, i pray for safety and may all stunts go up smoothly,
take care of the whole team and keep us safe in Your mighty arms.
AMEN.

love,
rach

2007-02-10T23:24:00.000+08:00

teddy bear! haha
had training from 10plus to 5 today.
man, whole body's aching!

met up with the darling

started to emo about stuff and just talk :)
we've gotta keep doing this man!
damn, i'm so tired.
think i'm going to be late for church tmr
:/

love,
rach

2007-02-07T21:04:00.000+08:00

ate ben&jerrys choc fudge+marshmallow+caramel ice cream
ate peanut butter m&m choc bar
loads of choc biscuits from candy empire
eating choc digestive biscuits now
such a chocolatey day :)

hello bed, goodnight!!

oh gf's first photo with her braceeesss.

love,
rach

2007-02-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

my brother asked me a maths question,

roy: whats 1 million sq?
me: alot lah.
jade: HAHAHAHAHHA.

damn tired.
the urge to escape to a farm is getting stronger everyday.
all alone again.
love,
rach

2007-02-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

thank you angel once again :)
you really really made my week happy.
:))
dont be sad gf,you've got me, bao and him!
today,
i was reminded again,
of how they left without a word.
it still hurts sometimes, i find it so hard to trust.
reason for breathing
babyface

love,
rach

2007-02-03T23:30:00.000+08:00

cheer was tiring today.
but then again it always is.
sitting there today,
i realised im alone.
tired,
i want to sleep for 32432478354 years :/
):
cherell.

2007-02-03T22:26:00.000+08:00

i love my pretty bottle of m&ms that my angel gave me :)
it really really made my week,
thankyou!!
school's been scarily tiring and boring.
and i feel so disorientated :/
maybe its the lack of __.
i just feel so used sometimes by you,
and i act this way,
sorry.
love,
rach

2007-02-01T00:12:00.000+08:00

i hate gp+hgeog.

cherell,
tired_gurl89 (haha)

2007-01-28T22:42:00.000+08:00

my week.
its been a long long night.
one of the toughest i've ever been through.

love,
rach

2007-01-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

love,
rach

2007-01-20T21:49:00.000+08:00

was in the mrt with boon just now on the way home, and this baby girl saw the balloon he was holding and ran towards him :) and made everyone around us laugh and smile. she played with the balloon and was really really happy :) till she made me smile so much :) then she dropped the balloon and an old man helped her pick it up. but he pricked it accidentally and burst it! and the expected thing happened, she burst out crying. The people around just smiled and laughed at her innocence.

the innocence of a child is amazingly wonderful and beautiful.
i felt the way she felt when she saw her balloon being burst.
just that maybe its become a habit,
a routine and a daily affair.
this week cant get any worse,
i'm choking back so much and getting a taste of everything,
i'm still praying and hoping for things to turn out better,
and maybe one day,
the balloon will never burst at all.

balloons are happy things arent they?
<3

irreplaceable
beyonce

love,
rach

2007-01-17T21:43:00.000+08:00

i've been hiccupping non stop for ten minutes.
blearghh.
damn irritating.

school's been long and tiring.
with cheer and schoolwork.
its only things like drawing that keeps us awake in geog lectures, right jade and gf? :)
its been a day filled with much stuff that i cant keep up with.
but i always love coming back home to see roy helping xanne do her artwork haha, mummy cooking and daddy when ever he comes home from overseas.
hope he's alright though after his impromptu minor eye op :(

AND i'm still hiccupping!!

love,
rach

2007-01-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

everything bad that can happen,
has happened.
cant imagine if things got any worse.
everything's changing so fast,
hang in there rangers!
we'll survive <3

and, take care clarence (:

hello Lord, we need a lil help.

cherell.

2007-01-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

the rangers are damn freaking annoyed today.
pffffft.

*rangers

2007-01-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY EIGHTEENTH DARLING ZIYAN!

its always a happy happy day when i see them :)
haha
the lonely hearts club :)
pretty blue roses,
heart heart <3

everything's changing so damn fast,
its scary.

love,
rach

2007-01-12T22:43:00.000+08:00

i called,
You answered,
and You came to my rescue
and i wanna be where You are

try to answer faster next time Lord?
i'm worried.

came to my rescue
hillsongs united

love,
rach

2007-01-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

i am angry cat today.
@$^&#@$%!#%#$

cherell.

2007-01-09T22:26:00.000+08:00

little little things made me happy tonight :)
plus the weather was rainy :)

'food for thought: rachel's legs look like baby carrots.'
stupid gf wrote that and laugh,
she means fat and short!!

and i didnt see - today :/
aye but jade says i'll have sweet dreams :)

love,
rach

2007-01-07T21:13:00.000+08:00

they all left one by one,
without a word.
haha what a joke.
i feel like a damn -.
sometimes,
i wonder if i should have just walked away first.

another week of sch coming up,
haha will - appear again?

i dont need a man
pussycat dolls

love,
rach

2007-01-06T21:55:00.000+08:00

i was reading nicholas sparks's Dear John:

when you're struggling with something,
look at all the people around you
and realize that every single person
you see is struggling with something,
and to them, it's just as hard as
what you're going through.

cherell.

2007-01-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

the first week of sch is over.
okay its actually only three days,
but man.
its tiring.

anw, went back to cedar yest to finally get o level certs.

oh this is the toilet where we met in sec one and became friends haha

happyhighs

trainings, school work and trying to fight away stupid emotions.
its only the start of 2007.
my mind's a blank now,
way to go rach.

you said
you dont know me,
you dont even care

boston
augustana

love,
rach

2007-01-01T16:29:00.000+08:00

aye finally a new year's here!
so glad to have left 2006 behind.
but then again,
the first day of the new year,
and i wonder if i've made the right decision :/

anw yest photos.

i dont know how to feel,
but its the attachment i have to them after teaching them for two years,
and people ask me questions i cant answer.

anw, at starbucks yest

i asked for extra whipped cream,
and just look at that.
haha

someone's rubbish creation.

yeah but 2007's gonna be a brand new start for everything,
and God's gonna be leading the way cause i'm not gonna to let Him go ever again.
Its not going to be easy,
whoever said so,
the first day of the new year alr started out hard.
haha oh well,
PRAY PRAY AND PRAY.
of course faith and trust :)

packing my room now,
saw many things of 2006 and the past,
haha
and i definitely know what to do with them.

Godbless the new year :)

love,
rach

2007-01-01T14:34:00.000+08:00

my new year's eve:

erhum.note whose expression is unchanging!

im so happening im spending my first day
of the year at home trying to do work ):
slept too late last night, head's hurting.

and i dont like the sound of january,
sounds tiring.
have to wait one whole year for december again.

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

so nice!

cherell.

2006-12-28T21:49:00.000+08:00

When somebody loved me,
everything was beautiful,
Every hour we spent together lives within my heart.

And when she was sad,
I was there to dry her tears,
And when she was happy so was I,
When she loved me.

Through the summer and the fall,
we had each other,
that was all,
Just she and I together,
like it was meant to be.

And when she was lonely,
I was there to comfort her,
And I knew that she loved me.

So the years went by,
I stayed the same,
But she began to drift away,
I was left alone.

Still I waited for the day when she'd say
I will always love you.

Lonely and forgotten,
never thought she'd look my way,
And she smiled at me and
held me just like she used to do,

Like she loved me,
when she loved me.

When somebody loved me,
everything was beautiful,
Every hour we spent together lives within my heart,

When she loved me.

i love this song :)

when somebody loved me
sarah mclachlan

2006-12-27T15:08:00.000+08:00

chaang just sent me to the chinese physician.
:///omg.
but he was nice lah.
haha see.
i'm thanking you.

this means no night cycling tmr :(
grr.

love,
rach

2006-12-26T00:32:00.000+08:00

its christmas :)
spent last night with cousins, aunties and uncles,
we were singing like mad last night.
haha my cousins and i with all the ol' westlife and britney songs.
man,
we were high :)

christmas was a painful day for me,
haha literally.
but nothing beats spending the day with my family at dinner with turkey and good food :)
and i just watched night at the museum with daddy and roy!
we ate like sooo much in the theatre,
haha love them.

busy busy week ahead!
AND HOMEWORK IS STILL UNTOUCHED :/

HAPPY SEVENTEENTH LOH WEITING!
she keeps thinking she's mature now.
haha kidding.
love you bao and stay happy! :))

love,
rach

2006-12-24T15:11:00.000+08:00

last night

moses my p5kid gave me a present today,
i love my kids so so so much.
sometimes i wish i could still teach them with caleb and sam.
sang many christmas songs today since its christmas eve!
and played the synthe for the last time in music min,
i will miss playing with them alot.

thanking God for so much,
whatever that had happened this year,
He had a plan,
and He's showing me the start of the road i'm supposed to follow :)
however much has changed,
however little has stayed,
God was the one thing that never changed.
this year's christmas feels so different,
maybe not as happy as last year's,
lesser presents haha kidding
but i guess its because i finally understood the real joy of christmas
and its hidden right deep in my heart :)

so much lost,
but so much gained.

christmas isn't christmas,
till it happens in your heart.
somewhere deep inside you,
is where christmas really starts.

love,
rach

2006-12-23T10:56:00.000+08:00

so much fun yest :))
firstly,
it was baking at pum's house.

heh

then met the taitais to exchange presents! :)

met karmun for dessert i guess haha
love that girl sooo much :)

haha our greeeeen clothes
look at denny and pearson so hilarious

pretty michelle!

gina my biatch :)

doyle looks so gay please haha

learning lindy hop till like midnight
and going home at 2.
haha i'm so tired
and there's training later,
and richson's concert tonight!

the joy of christmas can only be understood
when you have christ in your heart :)

love,
rach

2006-12-23T00:17:00.000+08:00

someone's back ((:
and i feel like vomitting.

timon has full-day training on my birthday!
^#$&*$#*(()#%)(^&@

and apparently,
cindy is busy,
celine is lazy,
char has something on,
last night cherr said she dont know whether can meet me on my birthday,
so i celebrate with jiaqi, 2 of us. -.-

wt.

2006-12-20T20:26:00.000+08:00

just came back from major major shopping.
really tired.
christmas is coming.

super strong God,
You love me,
super strong God,
You made everything so beautiful.

love,
rach

2006-12-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

this is the worse worse ever muscleache i've had in years. rahh.
and i miss -, it's only been a day. ):
die.

wt.

2006-12-16T22:38:00.000+08:00

here are the taiwan photos!
well,
just a part of it :)

trio :)

the pretty pretty swing

the amazing scenery behind us :)

self-explanatory

at ah li shan :)
see the heart shaped tree?
it means when couples stand there,
they will be forever as one.
haha.

ah ma! :))

fierce man

mummy's bday!!
daddy surprised her with a cake :)

okay,
just back from ypm camp.
its been different and erm,
well,
going to msia tmr!!
just slept the whole afternoon,
and i've had so little sleep the past few days.
waking up at 4 tmr!!
grrr. haha
but its shopping time.
here i come!! :)

You are my king my God
You're the one i praise
my life is Yours now and always
i cant live without You
i cant live a day without You
:D

love,
rach

2006-12-11T21:25:00.000+08:00

out with the girls today :)
its a brand new day,
a really new day for me.

yawn,
not feeling well,
gotta sleep.
Godbless all you folks :)

love,
rach

2006-12-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

thank You
:)))))

love,
rach

2006-12-09T21:43:00.000+08:00

back to square one.
square one.
and i cant believe it myself.
where is anyone when you need someone?
well, at least i know,
my God is there for me always :)
i'm trading my sorrows,
i'm trading my shame,
i'm laying them down for the joy of the Lord.
i'm trading my sickness,
i'm trading my pain,
i'm laying them down for the joy of the Lord.

with all i am
hillsongs

love,
rach

2006-12-08T23:09:00.000+08:00

back from taiwan and went for the second last day of children's camp.
i'm so glad i went,
broken and humbled before the Lord,
God's love is just so amazing.

three of us,
bonded by the Lord :)
with swollen eyes.

thanksgiving today.
i love my kids alot alot.
i will miss them so so so much when i go down to second session next year.
man,
i really really will miss them after teaching them for two years.

hope joseph is okay,
when a kid is hurt,
its takes alot to be healed.
was searching so badly for him,
wanted to talk to him,
hope he is fine.

its been two weeks i guess,
so many things on my mind,
everything just drifting by,
photos from taiwan coming up later!

michie told me smth today,
its not been easy,
its been painful,
and the pain was just unbearable today,
foolishness foolishness.
i dont know what else i can do.
but smile rachel :)
just smile.

i still cant believe why i cant do this,
i guess this will be the last time i'll be seeing you like this.
and i know that deep inside.
you're thinking of someone else.
love,
rach

2006-12-07T22:14:00.000+08:00

only one of the stupid self-timer shots we took hah.

this is bad,
i've been doing absolutely nothing
for the past 3 hours.
thinking about how 'i never saw that land before'.
yes, stupid lit poem critical appreciation.
HELP. rachelong and lohweiting,
where are you all i have no idea how to do!
grrrrrrrrr.

cherell.

2006-12-01T18:10:00.001+08:00

HELLO! :D
in KL now, executive lounge has free internet access and food and drinks.
hahah shite im gonna get fatter than before.
slept and ate the whole journey here,
my dad was speeding like crazy.
i havent started shopping yet,
i think i need warm up.

ANW, yest's angel job was killer,
trying to walk with my sis's high heels.
escorted the POSB CEO, i think im famous :/
okay going shoppeeeng now, BYE!
takecare fishy (:

<3, cherell.

2006-11-27T22:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RICHSON!
:D
to the cutest godbro ever (stop lying rach)
you're finally 17! :) keep on growing.

got him a huge elmo.
named it EMO.

my new boyfriend :)

emo's my new boyfriend.
okay okay,
flying off to taiwan on wed!
finally getting out of spore.

though my world may fall,
i'll never let You go..

love,
rach

2006-11-26T21:27:00.000+08:00

smth's wrong.
and i dont know what it is.
things have been really blurry,
and unrealistic nowadays.
cant seem to differentiate my dreams and reality.

had thanksgiving rehearsal yest
and this song touched me alot.

When I left home to be who I am
Some people said "No Way"
But I laid it all down, gave everything
In my head rang the words that my father said

You're never far
I will be where you are
and when you come to me
I will open my arms

Welcome Home, you
I know you by name
How do you do?
I shine because of you today
So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just to see your face.

When I look at you holding my heart
I will give to you all that I have
Son I know there'll be times
You will feel all alone
I will share with you the words my father said

You're never far
I will be where you are
and when you come to me
You can bet I will open my arms

Welcome Home, you
I know you by name
How do you do?
I shine because of you today
So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just to see your face

Said I've been waiting for that day
Just to feel your warm embrace
Your love has shown
I will never be alone
You will welcome me home

I'll forever be
You will say to me
Welcome Home, you
I know you by name
How do you do?
I shine because of you today
So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just to see your face

When I left home to be who I am
Some people said "No Way"

thank You.

welcome home
brian littrell

love,
rach

2006-11-24T13:31:00.000+08:00

its a stay-at-home friday today.
my voice's gone AGAIN.
and the flu bug is here.
no tuition,
heh.
but no towning too!
sorry becky :/
apologies to the dude for cancelling dinner too.
haha
and thank you to my guardian angel for the honey lemon!!

stolen from nellie

okay back to doing my present,
have a nice weekend :)

love you so
natalie

love,
rach

2006-11-23T22:18:00.000+08:00

went to earn some money
with cherr, nellie, boon, bryant, yn and clarence today.
that left us so so so tired and drained though it was kinda slack :/

boon can still pout.

yawn.
there's tuition and towning tmr.
grrr.
stay happy kids :)
cant wait to get out of singapore next week.
goodnight.

love,
rach

2006-11-22T00:25:00.000+08:00

today,
i felt like the whole world
was on my shoulders.
no lah it was just rach on shoudler stand.
hahha i still love you girlfriend :D

cherell.

2006-11-21T23:16:00.000+08:00

I'll have a blue Christmas without you
I'll be so blue thinking about you
Decorations of red
On a green Christmas tree
Won't be the same
If you're not here with me

And when those blue snow flakes start falling
And when those blue memories start falling
You'll be doing all right with your Christmas of white
But I'll have a blue, blue, blue, blue Christmas

Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh

Decorations of red
On a green Christmas tree
Oh, won't be the same
If you're not here with me

I'll have a blue Christmas, that's certain
And when that blue heartache starts hurting
You'll be doing all right
With your Christmas of white
But I'll have a blue, blue Christmas

it sure doesnt feel like christmas is coming..
haha it will surely be a very different one this year huh.
go ard town and you see pretty decorations put up,
your heart warms at the fact that your favourite season is coming
:)

but somehow,
something changes and you wish for christmas to..

love,
rach

2006-11-19T02:05:00.000+08:00

what ya'll think?
i just spent 2hrs on this!
haha and if its ugly SAY SO.
(the grey's supposed to be SILVER)

weiting.

2006-11-18T23:05:00.000+08:00

2 A.M. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're tellin me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say -- try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough -- if we learn to trust

(chorus)

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our last good-bye

(chorus)

only love
trademark

love,
rach

2006-11-17T23:39:00.000+08:00

just went casuarina for supper with daddy, roy and xanne
since mummy is in hk for shopping over the weekend,
hope she enjoys herself there and come back happy :)

before daddy alighted us,
he said, i'm sure you all can tuck yourself into bed right?
i smiled.
maybe it just seemed like years ago he said that,
but it still warmed my heart to hear him say this.

appreciating every single joy that i have,
tasting God's love everyday.

anw,
teacher said that laughter makes you grow fat :/
haha.
staying strong and alive
love,
rach

2006-11-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

never had so much fun for so long!!
went to collect class pullovers.
then went out with L.O.L :)
we kinda took 90 photos to be exact.
haha rach and i were so shocked to see chock popped out
from like nowhere looking all different.
he just makes me laugh man :)

we seriously never had so much fun for such a looong time :)
for the first time in i-dont-know how long,
i lost track of time.

where are you
natalie and justin roman

love,
rach

2006-11-16T19:34:00.000+08:00

yawn.
i reached home at 5pm and i've been feeling bored till now. and till the end of hols i'll probably be reaching home at 5pm almost everydayyyyy. omg damn poor thing. all -'s fault.

okay, i'm going gymming now. byebye.

oh, im a failure at job hunting. rahh.

weiting.

2006-11-15T01:00:00.000+08:00

here's what i did last night,
babysitted my niece kaelynn.

she's so cute, and talks alot :D

shopping with weiting today

pretty chocs from keli (:

hahha our self painted nails

after a bad experience of manicure with my mum,
we decided to do our own business using liquid paper :D

im tired.
oh i was thinking how life is so unexpected,
you never know what will happen.
okay i raelly should sleep now BYE!

cherell.

2006-11-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

met up with them finally after a year :)
brought back so many memories of my sec 3 and 4 years with them!!
the laughter and the joy i had with them,
i miss cedar alot :)
maybe i should seriously go back someday soon,
well,
to collect our cert right GF?!
i need to occupy myself alottt.
love,
rach

2006-11-13T22:06:00.000+08:00

i just wanna sing,
sing and sing praises to You
till everything ends...

i need you alot.

love,
rach

2006-11-13T16:33:00.000+08:00

unglam photos coming up!!

well well,
i have twit making out with spongebob and jade
thinking that she's making out with justin timberlake.
:/
they're still here and killing me...

haha no lah,
love them.
:D

jade wants to look at smth important now,
hehheh
gotta go!!

love,
rach

2006-11-12T21:37:00.000+08:00

my day.

this uncle kept falling asleep on me on the bus,
i was really so darn irritated and fed up,
he fell asleep at least five times.

then..
i got lost for the second time alone.
it was traumatizing.
i dont know,
it was just scary.
some just wont understand.
and i was just being really stupid i guess.
i mean its in public.
sigh,
i dont know.
and lots of other stuff.

everything should just be simple and simpler.

well,
someone compensated by treating me ice cream,
so i guess i was happier.
nah,
three of us had some beeeg talk at my house and just being totally romantic.
i love them.

and i think my beloved pw mate is cool,
he could see through me that easily.
ha.
as what eve said,
unexpected people see through you.

my day cant be any worse,
but you know what?
i have a maker who sees it all,
who knows it all,
and never forsakes me,
thank You.

emotion
destiny's child

love,
rach

2006-11-11T21:56:00.000+08:00

its been a rainy cold day.
getting drenched horribly did make me realise alot i guess.
guessed too much rain got into my head.
seeeee,
you get it.
it was quite a surprise to see people that i've not seen for a long time,
its pleasant i guess :)

i'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about You,
it's all about You Jesus.

just shut up and lock :/
they do not care anymore
love,
rach

2006-11-10T21:31:00.000+08:00

i love mummy.
she bought so so so much food for dinner.
and there's training tmr.
hmmm. :)

step up is really good,
go watch!!

He sees each tear that falls,
and He hears me when i call.

i realise too much medication long term
have many side effects.
grrr.
i'm afraid to sleep,
step up
step up soundtrack
i hate to wake up dreaming,
knowing its all a dream every single night.
love,
rach

2006-11-08T00:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOONXZXZX!
i hope you enjoyed your day (:

anw we spent our day at east coast,
rollerbladed(fine, tried to) and boon cycled.
omg asking for it only,
muscle ache is back.
but nothing beats sitting at the breakwaters,
and screaming hahha.
tired, but had fun.
okay i need to sleep,
tuition then pw tmr.
goodnight!
im sorry but im really tired.

cherell.

2006-11-05T21:47:00.000+08:00

im walking like a duck,
i mean more than i usually do.
so yah, imagine how bad is that!
my back, shoulders, leg AND butt is aching.
hmm anw enough complaining.
but i dont know what else to write,
havent blogged for too long!
step up is really good by the way.
okay bye, im bored.

cherell.

2006-11-05T15:15:00.000+08:00

phone just sent for repairs for three days,
for the first time,
i felt a sense of loss.
wondering why as the last time i lost my first phone,
i felt so happy to lose it,
err for various reasons and yeah i could live without it man.
now it feels so weird without it
and i dont understand why!!
when it doesnt even matter.

it was really good worship today.
i felt alot,
really alot.
the Lord's unconditional love.
thank You for touching me once again :)

but more than anything else,
why did it ached so so much..

love,
rach

2006-11-04T22:10:00.000+08:00

GRRRR.
BODY'S ACHING LIKE MAD.
i love trainings though :)
i am sooo tired.
but since daddy's buying back supper from newton
i'll gladly wait.
haha shite.
someone tell me to stop eating.

anw, i can cook pretty well
right cherell?
admit it lah :)

la dee dumm.
i feel satisfied looking at next week's timetable.
aye. gonna wait for supper.
meanwhile,
everyone stay cool and happy :))

ooh, emo emo song.
i'm in love with westlife :)

You give me strength
You give me hope
You give me someone to love,
someone to hold
When I'm in your arms,
I need you to know
I've never been,
never been
This close

close
westlife

love,
rach

2006-11-04T21:28:00.000+08:00

i am
dead.
tired.

advice: never go swim in the morning when there's cheer in the afternoon.

gets you dead and tired.
with severe muscleache.

weiting.

2006-11-02T21:55:00.000+08:00

the result of this:

I LOST MY VOICE AGAIN
:(((
but i enjoyed it alot alot :)

Can anybody out there hear me?
Cause I can't seem to hear myself
Can anybody out there see me?
Cause I can't seem to see myself
There's gotta be a heaven somewhere
Can you save me from this hell?
Can anybody out there feel me?
Cause I can't seem to feel myself

Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way
Can you help me find my way?
Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way
Can you help me find my way?

losing my way
justin timberlake

i'm getting away
soon,
really soon.

love,
rach

2006-11-01T22:40:00.000+08:00

its a weird weird day :/
haha dont know how to feel and what to feel
ooh but i can so sense the love thats spreading to
many of my friends huh :)
people nowadays,
tsk tsk.

just like heaven is the sweetest movie
i tell you :)
thank you for borrowing it for me again.

i'm sorry,
but i cant be like you.

You've been alone
You've been afraid
I've been a fool
In so many ways
But I would change my life
If you thought you might try love me

So please give me another chance
To write you another song
Take back those things I've done
Cause I'll give you my heart
If you would let me start all over again

I'm not a saint
I'm just a man
Who let heaven and earth in the palm of his hand
But I threw it away
So now I stand here today asking forgiveness
And if you could just

Please give me another chance
To write you another song
Take back those things I’ve done
Cause I'll give you my heart
If you would let me start all over again

Little girl, you're all I've got
Don't you leave me standing here once again
Cause I'll give you my life (yes I would)
If you would let me try to love you

So please give me another chance
To write you another song
And take back those things I've done
Cause I'll give you my heart
If you would let me start all over again
Again oh
No no oh oh

You know I love you (yeah)
Give me one more chance
No NoNo No No No

(another song)all over again
justin timberlake

love,
rach

2006-10-29T10:27:00.000+08:00

MUSCLEACHE IS KILLING ME.

BUT CHEER IS DAMN FUN SO I GUESS ITS WORTH IT.

weiting.

2006-10-28T23:14:00.000+08:00

i just read the class blog, and cried.
its gonna be so hard huh.
i really hate this whole education system so much,
promotional exams and all.
but whatever it is,
i love 06A02 alot,
i think we've bonded so much since the start of sch,
so gonna miss selvan and rach ho.

next week's gonna be busy,
with TB injection:/, OP, makeup lessons, chi A's, interview,
and of course date with selvan haha.
cheerleading today was good (ready, okay!),
but completely tiring.
stretching, warm ups, and stunts.
ouch, im not getting outta bed tmr.
brought weiting home with me(haha),
acted like stupid bimbos painting nails.

hmm okay feeling a lil emo hahah.
to everyone who's feeling lost,
trust God and dont lose faith (:

cos like candycherell(HAHA!) always says,
when youre close to tears remember,
someday it will all be over.

love, cherell.